It has been a while, took its time coming, this revelation. I’ve had such an inkling, but I couldn’t get my finger to reach far enough, couldn’t quite get my finger on it.
So, per my usual, I’ve been throwing myself at it. Not quite as hard as I have in the past but, nonetheless. Anyway, today it turned to pure inexplicable grief, I let myself cry without understanding and then the comprehension descended.
Lately, I believe, your main point in interacting with me has been to communicate a very specific message. A message to me for sure, maybe to yourself, I don’t know and that part is neither here nor there. It doesn’t matter.
But the content of the message itself finally made its way to my consciousness today. Made its long slow way through all my feelings and enthusiasm and bullshit, until I finally got it.
It is so funny in a way. Because I already knew it. I had that reality pinned down from the beginning. That is why it took me so long to figure out it was the current message. Because, duh, I already knew that. You did not need to interact with me more just to get that across. There was no reason for it, because it has always been my apriori assumption.
You’ve been continuing to interact with me in order to make sure I see how incidental my place is in your scheme of things.
So yeah. You can stop now. I get it. And these continued interactions are just confusing and useless.
If that’s all there is to it. Just quit.